作者  teamilktea (吶諾諾)   看板  wisdom


越是理所當然存在的人  越是重要。

------------------------------------------------ 

句子是出我自己..
                                                                               
最近才有勇氣面對這個事實。 
                                                                               
前兩年的冬天, 
                                                                               
我的阿媽住院, 
                                                                               
她是一個很堅強隱忍的女人, 
                                                                               
不是痛的沒辦法忍受,她是不會說出來, 
                                                                               
但是隨著老人家的年紀一天一天年長,住院的次數也逐漸增多 
                                                                               
所以,也從擔心慢慢轉到平常心面對, 
                                                                               
那天下課,我到醫院探望她, 
                                                                               
她看到我一來,笑的兩頰紅嘟嘟的, 
                                                                               
眼睛瞇成灣月形,我說什麼她都笑得很開懷, 

天色不早,我就跟阿媽說, 
                                                                               
「那我先回家了,你要好好養病,等你病好,我再帶你愛吃的關東煮去看妳。」 
                                                                               
她笑得很開心,點頭說好, 
                                                                               
一個禮拜後阿媽出院了, 
                                                                               
我說有報告要寫,期末考快到了,下次吧。 
                                                                               
日子一天天的拖延, 
                                                                               
就在某個半夜,阿媽就又住院了, 
                                                                               
情況危急,衝倒醫院的急診室門口,一大群親戚盤守著, 
                                                                               
十幾個人的小空間,卻只有抽搭搭的聲音, 
                                                                               
腦死。醫生說。我紅了眼眶。 
                                                                               
後來一年過了,我再次經過那間老關東煮店, 
                                                                               
突然想起我跟阿媽約好的關東煮, 

原來我一直把這些事視為理所當然, 
                                                                               
理所當然,阿媽會在舊家的店門口,看著人來人往。 
                                                                               
理所當然,她會在每次我去找她的時候,先問我有沒有變瘦, 
                                                                               
如果沒有她就會露出她的大腿,跟我的手臂比,然後再威脅要把我的肉拿去賣, 
                                                                               
也不管我已經20開頭,還是說著這些話。 
                                                                               
理所當然,她就會在那裡。 
                                                                               
可是我忘記了,生命不是理所當然的存在。 
                                                                               
我的淚掉不停,站在那家關東煮店的前面。 
                                                                               
我才領悟到... 
                                                                               
當被愛著也愛著那些理所當然存在的人們時, 
                                                                               
請記得理所當然的告訴他們你愛她。 


創作者介紹
創作者 leaderkid 的頭像
leaderkid

奏~獨身進行曲

leaderkid 發表在 痞客邦 留言(0) 人氣()